gray-the-kitsune

You know, Deviantart, I had a funny thought just now. Last time I drew something was...over two years ago. I wonder how much better I'd have become if I'd kept drawing. I kind of miss it, personally. But its just so much work, figuring out perspective, and photoshop, and proper drawing techniques. Feels like an awful lot of work, instead of fun. This is a pickle, deviantart.

If there's one thing I've learned about any pursuit, you will do far better at it if you enjoy it. Or perhaps that only applies to drawing. For the longest time I've known I wasn't drawing, back when I did draw, to do draw. I drew because I had images, scenes in my head and a desperate, mind-murdering fear that they would never see the light of day, and were far, far out of my reach to make into collections of visual images. So I drew, and when progress seemed impossible, I became frustrated, eventually giving up. And I've seen artists I've watched since I started soar past me. Every time I do I wonder what could've been. How good I could've

I wonder how good I'd be by now if I had enough self-confidence not to care about the quality of my work.